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Breaking the Silence
Recently I sat around a table surrounding a group of women and the subject of infertility and miscarriage was raised. Days prior, I walked into an unwelcomed conversation regarding my own struggle with infertility and my most recent loss. Both of these experiences triggered very different emotions. While listening to another woman openly share her experiences with infertility and miscarriage, the room suddenly fell into a deafening silence. I felt uncomfortable. But not because of the content of the conversation; I was uncomfortable with the silence that took over the room and with how the woman with the open heart who took a risk must have felt. Here’s the thing…
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Trading Your Burdens For Peace, Joy & Love
Sometimes I get so caught up in trying to help and inspire others that I forget to inspire myself. Sometimes I forget to find joy in life and sometimes I am lazy and feel like wallowing in my own mess. I am a phony. I don’t always follow my own words of wisdom that I deliberately preach to the world about. After I wrote my last post I uncovered a painful truth. I’ve been lying to myself. Am I grateful? Yes. Have I accepted that life will happen? Absolutely. I am, without a doubt, a lucky woman. But these last couple of weeks I haven’t actually been considering why I am…
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Replacing the Unknown With Perception
“Maybe you’re fighting something you don’t like today. Why don’t you have a new perspective? God wouldn’t have you there if you didn’t need it. It may not be good, but he knows how to use it for your good.” -Joel Osteen I slept fine the night before my surgery. I even woke up with a smile on my face the morning of. Probably because I found my daughter lying next to me as soon as I rolled over at the sound of the alarm. Or maybe I don’t give myself enough credit and forget that I am generally a very happy person despite these recent curve balls I have been thrown. Either…
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Braving the Darkness With the Light of Hope
Not many people are aware of the full-fledged details regarding my loss. Without really going there I will tell you that I could have lost my own life. This was a very terrifying concept for me to process under the given circumstances. After my water broke I developed a severe infection that remained in my body for three days before it had actually been discovered. My body was going into septic shock once the doctor had finally discovered what was causing my vitals to spike. I wasn’t able to actually process the significance of the infection until we were released from the hospital. “You’re very lucky,” they said, “This could…
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Striving For Progress Instead of Perfection
After we lost Brody my husband and I had an awakening. We needed to start living we said. Stop trying to be in control of every aspect of our lives and just live. Let things be. Enjoy our family. Let the housework go. Put the phones down and have conversations. We knew that we were over committed, over worked and exhausted. We never stopped. I was, who am I kidding, I still am a controlling type A, who if nothing goes my way watch out or else the horns and tail come out (or so my husband jokingly claims), kind of woman. Let me assure you that I am not…