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The Road to Here
Day 20 of 365 and it feels no different than our final days in 2020, the year that changed us, shaped us, challenged us, broke us, healed us and transformed us into totally different people that we were in the beginning of 2020. I think I lived a dozen different lives in just 12 months’ time. Last year, I walked into 2020 with the mindset that I was going to live a more disciplined life. I thrive on routine and structure and thought that I’d find more achievement in my everyday life by setting more rules for myself. Be organized, stay focused, set goals and make absolutely no room for…
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33 things to 33
I was 25 when I met one of my dearest friends – she had a few more years on me and plenty more experience. She once told me that her thirties had been her best years yet and a time when she began to stop caring so much about what others thought of her. My gosh, to think back on that age when I knew so little and cared way too much. Eight years ago, when my girlfriend shared her heart with me, I was so young and inexperienced. I thought I knew it all – I thought I had the wisdom and understanding to tell the world how it…
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The Truth About the Birds and the Bees
When I look at her, I still see so much innocence in her 10 year old eyes. I see her playing with toys and coloring pictures and snuggling her stuffed animals to fall asleep at night. I see a young girl who loves to play in the backyard and still leaves the dinner table with pizza sauce in the corner crevices of her mouth. I see a little girl who still reaches for my hand – only once in awhile – but always wants to cuddle with me at night. What I don’t see is a girl who is ready to know what we know. I don’t see someone who…
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Waiting on the Green Light
Good stories take time to unfold, like bad storms need time to weather. It’s scary, though, isn’t it? Waiting for the pages of your book to write themselves. Waiting out the storm. Waiting for all the stars to align. Waiting on the green light. We spent 6 months in that place, though truthfully, I think we spend a lifetime here. But for this particular season, we waited 6 months for God to say go. To turn the light on and free us from the dark. There was so much promise here, but we didn’t see it then. Because the waiting is dark and lonely and I had all these questions.…
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When Grief Shows Up At the Beach
My husband is a quiet, humble man; never quick to share what’s on his mind. It’s an eminence of his character that I fell in love with, but it also a trait that leaves me feeling isolated at times. So, when we were laying in the sand underneath the hot Florida sun while on vacation two weeks ago, I was caught off guard when he announced that he wished his sons were here with us. I laid there for a second trying to process those words. I didn’t have time to though because he quickly added to his declaration telling me that as he watched the dads playing catch with…
